Here we are. The fourth and final year of our secondary school education. It's gone by pretty quickly, hasn't it? It's difficult to believe that we're approaching the end of our precollege years. Just think about this time next year, when we're going to be throwing ourselves into the great unknown that is independence--away from strict rules, away from parents, and away from home.
Even now, I can't even get accustomed to calling myself a senior. Senior. That word seems invariably profound with a certain sense of finality attached. It's like a wake up call. We're all growing up. For real this time.
Of course, senior year seems to be attached to the notions of freedom, carefree actions, and fun. The go-to mentality of the typical senior is along the lines of "I can't wait to get out of here!", which, of course, is the basis of the terribly debilitating case of laziness known as senioritis. But take a step back. Even with the worst case of senioritis, there is that slight well of nostalgia. Graduating is bittersweet. Freedom comes with the loss of this school, these peers, these teachers, and, most of all, this home.
In many ways, it's terrifying--especially now, when we begin to delve into future plans, immersing ourselves in the hectic world that is the college application process. I don't know where I want to go. I don't know what I want to do. I just don't know. But maybe we're really not supposed to know. Maybe that's what senior year is all about.
It's a juggling act. Fill out this application today. Write this essay tomorrow. Go to school. Rewrite that awful paragraph. Look at scholarships. Look at schools. Extracurricular activity. Edit this essay. Ask for a recommendation. Keep going to school. On and on and on and on...
We're all growing up. For real.
I agree with alot of the facts on here. It`s kind of terrifying to think that we need to seriously think about our future and what we want to do. I am also taking part in the juggling act, going through a cycle of filling applications, look up scholarships, and writing essays. I can`t wait for the finale of this juggling act, I know it will be one of my most reliefing moments in my life!
ReplyDeleteIt's strange how all throughout your life when you reach milestones, major achievements, goals, really anything that's been coming down the pipe for a while, especially anything that you've really been looking forward to, when it does finally happen, it seems so surreal. How can this finally be here? Anyway, enjoy it as much as you can, and keep up the hard work. You're almost done here. For Real.
ReplyDeleteIt is true. This is legitimately our last year as children. In a few, short months, we will be officially adults and officially in full control of our lives. It is both an exciting time for us, but also a hectic time in that we are running around doing this and that, trying to get ready for the unknown that lies waiting just ahead.
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