final blog post! score!

This semester has been surprisingly pleasant. I sincerely enjoyed the short story unit with its wide assortment of stories that presented varying perspectives on varying subjects of life. The drama unit, though perhaps quite a bit more challenging, was too filled with a multitude of personal benefits. Shakespeare and I have never quite got along-- with all of his odd ways of speaking and communicating. But something that I truly learned this semester was an appreciation of Shakespeare that I never quite understood. The masterful things that Shakespeare can do with language is a wonder, and I am glad that I have finally achieved some understanding of his works, even if it was through tedious nights of reading Hamlet.

There hasn't been much that I have been frustrated with, besides the struggles with Shakespearian language, because I have thoroughly enjoyed the literature we have covered in this class. The discussions sparked by these literary works are among the most interesting that I have participated in and really give me a taste of what a real, intellectual discussion is like. Further, this class has introduced me to a number of amazing books that have become some of my favorites-- especially The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao! (You should read it.)

lets talk satire

Satire makes for the most interesting of literature. Aimed at ridiculing the vices of humans or of society as a whole, satire provides commentary and criticism often in order to "shame" things into improving. 

When we think about satire, we automatically think of The Onion or Saturday Night Live, both of which are sources of satirical hilarity and entertainment. The articles of The Onion and the sketches of SNL entertain people. Even so, both deal with real-world topics, recent events that are in some way representative of the shortcomings of society. The beauty of things like Saturday Night Live is that they are able to appeal to the masses, to publicize the problems and issues through ridiculing them-- through entertainment! 

But even the serious type of satire can be fascinating. Think Brave New World or Animal Farm. These two literary works are among the most interesting to study. In particular, Brave New World was a novel that really forced me to think about the rapidly advancing technological world and the strange mentality that comes with it. Issues present in these types of satire are incredibly relevant and worth further exploration. 

Satire. It serves all purposes. Entertainment and social criticism-- all in one. 

fukú and zafa

Fukú americanus, despite its uncanny resemblance to an English profanity, is a curse, one that has plagued Oscar de Leon's family for several generations. It is perhaps only a ridiculous superstition, but it seems to be a comfortable excuse for Oscar's terrible bad luck. Disastrously overweight, depressingly lonely, and socially awkward, Oscar does not live the ideal life. 

Such is the concept for Junot Diaz's The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao. If you haven't read it yet, you should give it try. You could learn more about this curious, explicitly-named fukú americanus. 

The story is one of love, hatred, violence, compassion------ all of the emotions in one giant rainbow. It's about the most passionate kind of love, the deepest kind of hatred, the most terrible violence. The characters vibrantly come alive to tell you this life of Oscar, of his sharply stubborn mother Belí, his curse-bringer grandfather Abelard (everything can be blamed on Dominican dictator Trujillo), and his selfless, devoted sister Lola. This story is clearly more poignant than you thought. Plus, a little bit of Dominican history is thrown in there. 

And then there is the fukú and its counterspell, zafa. Bad luck and good luck-- the same kind of superstitions that we have (perhaps more superstitious...). But it really forces you to think about how much of Oscar's life is a function of this fukú, how much is saved by zafa, and how much is random chance. 

Pick it as your next independent reading book. 

seriously, what's up with hamlet?

Hamlet may say that he is only feigning insanity, but in all honesty, he must be crazy. How else can you explain his bizarre and morosely philosophical soliloquies, his blatant disregard for all of his relationships, his apparently merciless, ruthless thoughts? It is difficult to label him sane when he muses on whether avoiding suicide is worth it, when he comes to the conclusion that the reason to live is to avoid the nightmares in the afterlife, when he cruelly spurns his former love interest Ophelia, when he brutally lashes his mother with his words, when he refuses to murder his uncle until he is caught in a sinful act.... ETC.

Even Hamlet's act of feigning insanity is insane. He must be crazy.

I presume the normal Hamlet, the sane Hamlet is a rational individual, good-natured and decently virtuous-- one who nurtures his relationships rather than destroy them, who concerns himself what every normal young adult concerns himself with, who does not contemplate the prospect of committing suicide. The Hamlet we see is one with a personality inundated with cruelty and mercilessness. He is grossly compared to his uncle, who is initially presented as the heartless villain but whose guilt and humanity is later revealed. Hamlet, on the other hand, only wishes to kill Claudius when he is not praying and feels no remorse after killing an innocent man.

But if you think about it, maybe his craziness is justifiable. I mean, this dude did just lose the person whom he idolized and revered the most, not to mention he's been subject to a truckload of hard-hitting betrayal. His uncle murdered his father. His mother married his uncle. His best friends are spies for his uncle. There are a plethora of catalysts for his insanity.

beauty

The 9 most beautiful words in the English language according to a Mr. Phil Cousineau: 
aesthetics
carouse
coffee
flaneur
ramble
smirk
sub rosa
voluptuous
zenith

To be blunt, I think Cousineau is wrong. Firstly, out of the millions of words that exist in our language, are these really the most beautiful? Secondly, I don't find many of these words to be particularly beautiful. Thirdly, "k" sounds are too harsh for my taste. 

Granted, this disagreement probably exists because Cousineau and I are not the same person. We do not think the same way. The problem with gauging beauty is its vague definitions, its excessive subjectivity-- especially when dealing with something not traditionally considered to be beautiful, like words. 

What makes a word beautiful? Cousineau's answer is different from mine, just as mine is likely different from yours. A word is beautiful to me because of everything that surrounds it-- its pronunciation, its meaning, its connotation. My favorite words are those that seem to exude warmth, freshness, even happiness. My favorite words are those that sound romantically poetic-- smooth and pacifying in a way that creates an image of calm beauty. 

With regards to pronunciations, "s" sounds are nice. "k" sounds are ugly.

Some beautiful words in the English language according to Ms. Jessie Li
serendipity 
bliss
licentious (you saw that one coming)
effervescent
fluorescence
ethereal 
serene
ambrosia
iridescence 

You probably think I'm wrong. 

crazy philosophical moments

"Let every man in mankind's frailty consider his last day; and let none presume on his good fortune until he find life, at his death, a memory without pain."
-Oedipus Rex (lines 1471-1475)

The last lines of Oedipus Rex are actually quite insightful, expressing the ease with which people seem to take things for granted. Fortune can only be claimed after the fact. In retrospect. Later.

Take Oedipus as an example. So preoccupied with the fruits of his supposed success-- his ascension to the throne, his marriage to the Queen, the reverence of his people-- he lives in ignorance of the truth. He considers himself to be overwhelmingly fortunate, a fact so cruelly untrue. Oedipus's live is certainly not a memory with pain, even if the vast majority of his life was lived in happiness.

It's easy to forget how fragile everything really is. So much of our lives are so fast-paced, so focused on the now-- that pensive moments are few and far between. How often have you really thought about your life-- really thought about it?

Case in point:

I stare at the prompt: "what matters to you and why?" A simple enough question-- should have been simple enough to answer. But I just stare blankly. I've never given it a real thought. What matters to me? Who matters to me? And then the incredibly elusive... What really makes me me? (The incredibly self-discoveries you make with the assistance of college essays...) I still haven't come to a complete conclusion. Life is just too complicated. (Another reason why college essays are impossible).

This was one of those crazy philosophical moments that everyone experiences sometimes--the kind that leaves you to ponder the meaning of life, the reason to live, etc. It's almost like you're not in the present for a moment, absent from the realities of now, focused on the obscurities of the self. It's funny how the more I think about it, the more confused I become. One thing I know for sure-- things are too fragile to take for granted. 

Maybe we should have more crazy philosophical moments. They're so much fun!

it's your fate

Have you ever thought about your fate? I sure hadn't-- at least until I read the delightful Oedipus Rex, the play that delves into the concepts of fate versus free will. Oedipus, in an attempt to escape his fate, runs directly into the arms of fate itself. His actions had been predestined. His choices were not entirely his own-- they were a product of his destiny.

It's all a bit mind-blowing, really. Can you truly imagine that every one of your actions has been planned-- that you have been fated to do what you do, to make the choices you have made? It's unnerving to even speculate that my control over my life can be questioned. If we all truly have a fate, there is nothing that we can do to evade it. Any tries to do so, like Oedipus, will only fulfill our fates. Everything comes full circle.

But does it really matter?

Suppose we all had predestined fates. Maybe things are different in Oedipus's world, where people could consult oracles who would accurately decipher their fates. But this is the real world. There are no magically gifted clairvoyants to say what the future holds (I guess this could be debatable, but I suppose I am a skeptic of the superstitious. And I feel like the majority would agree with me). There is no way of truly knowing our fates. The truth is that it doesn't matter-- people will go on living their lives, making choices as if they did have free will, and they will never know that their choices were of any other origin than their own selves.

Maybe believing in a fate can result in peace of mind. Thinking that the events of life are out of conscious control eliminates the "what if?" mentality and the regret that accompanies that. So many people constantly stick to the mantra, "Everything happens for a reason," and perhaps for good reason. Whether or not it's true, there's an optimism to it that everyone likes. Everyone needs a little optimism.

Do you have a fate? You can decide.